This worry is ruining my life, i can’t talk to anyone about it so i’m really hoping you people can help me.I’m 15 now and i think i was molested when i was 6 years old.My gran had gotten Cancer and my mother went to go visit her in the hospital(this was when the cancer got bad, so she was very ill) and my mother had to have a neighbour mind me for that day because no one else could.And i think he may have molested me.Here’s why, i started masterbating at a very young age,i cant remember exactly but it was around 6-7(this is really embaressing),anytime i think of him i feel disgusting,i also remember my mother had sent me down to his house with my barbie and he kept pulling down the barbies top and laughing.I remember getting really upset at him doing that, looking back on it, i just feel sick to my stomach.But the thing is i can’t remember ANY molestation going on at all.All i remember is the really thing he did with my barbie doll,being terrified of his bathroom and just being terrified of him in general.I just got a really really creepy odd vobe from him.I truely hope i wasn’t because i was i don’t know how i’m going to cope with this.This worry has been with me for years but i have always managed to push it at the back of my head but i cant anymore.It just wont go away.I cant eat,sleep and my grades are dropping.
I also,cant talk to my mother about this because shes a manic depressive and i don’t want to make her feel worse then she does.please help.
6 Responses
MAG
20|Jan|2010 1I disagree with Raen. You very easily could ahve repressed those memories, at any age really.
But I think that your impression of him was so strongly negative that your brain could be twisting the story and making a bit of a fabrication out of it.
Try to talk to a school counselor, at the least, and see what you can do for yourself, or else you may never know.
babinurs
21|Jan|2010 2Nobody can tell you if this man molested you but you. Only you know what happened in his house. You need to talk to somebody about this. Tell your mom you would like to see a therapist. She doesn’t need to know why. Tell her you just need someone to talk to. Either that or go to your guidance counselor at your school. Many schools have social workers on staff who can talk with kids. Your guidance counselor or school nurse should be able to help you.
D L
21|Jan|2010 3the memory of being molested is usually not forgotten. even at a young age. though it is possible that you were molested at around age 6, it is very unlikely. however, you cannot forget the feelings you get when you think of the individual that was supposed to care for you, nor can you forget his wierd behaviors. With your mother going through manic depression, you have the extra challenge of dealing with this, perhaps for the great purpose of living on to help some one else who is going through the same thing. God makes life hard for certain people, and often times these certain people become great people that touch the hearts of many. as i do. as you will. your grades…don’t worry too much about them. more important, be grateful for who you are and what you have. be there for your mom. be helpful for her, and you won’t regret it. high school grades become trivial in the big picture of life. i had a lot of problems in high school, emotional problems that negatively affected my grades, but now that i’m a little more emotionally mature, college is easy, work is easy, and life is getting better and better.
who you associate with is very important. surround yourself with positive people.
Raen
21|Jan|2010 4It doesn’t sound like you were molested, because at the age of 6-7 you’re definately able to make and retain memories, which means that if something like that happened to you, you’d remember it. After all, if you remembered something as little as him pulling down the top on your barbie, then you’d remember him causing you massive amounts of pain. As for masturbation, that can happen to several children at a young age. I actually started masturbating without even knowing what it was, and yes I am a girl too. He may just give off the vibe of being a creep without meaning to.
Robbie M
21|Jan|2010 5talk to the police. or a counseller, dont say tht your neighbour molested you, cos that could be unjustified, just tell hem you may have been molested when your were 6 yrs old by your neighbour (find out his name) they may bring him in, then you’ll find out. if that happens, you’ll be counselled for it, and that may help, in time you will leard to deal with it and eventually forget about it completly, good luck.
Much Love
Robbie M
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Tessy S
21|Jan|2010 6from the way your acting he did something to you. the reason why you can’t remember is because sometimes when things happen to use especially traumatic the brain will block it out. kinda like if you get in to a car wreck and you ask someone what happen they can’t remember but can remember what happen 10 or 20 minutes but not the accident itself.
i know you don’t feel like you can’t talk to your mom but you need to if you absolutely can’t talk to an adult you do trust someone close an uncle aunt a sister cousin someone you have b/c it may effect you when you get older. in a negative way….
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